IG Post: Finding Our Confidence
The amount of growth around the river has been incredible over the last week. Dare I say Spring has sprung. This is what causes an affliction I call Weather Amnesia™. I'm happy to suffer it each year. Bet some of you are too lol.
Something that's been rattling around my head for awhile is *when* we feel the most confident. What moments do we feel legit good? I feel like confidence ebbs and flows based upon a number of factors 3 including what is happening in that exact moment. How do we channel that feeling into those times we aren't feeling "it". Confidence can be fleeting so it's important to be proud of yourself. You know that though, I'm not telling you anything new. Think about those proud moments and build upon them, step by step.
When is a time I feel confident? When I walk out of the gym, fresh out the shower, I feel like I can take on the world all because I showed up and put the effort forward. That's nothing special, lots of people do that.
I'm proud because there was a version of me that never would've done what's good for me. The pain of failure was comfortable, it was familiar and it was easy. Maybe it felt good in a fucked up way. I'll bet some of you know what I'm talking about. Or you've been through it and you're on the other side. Ecept there really isn't another side. Every day you battle to stay on the right path, knowing that your opponent knows you better than anyone else. You know your weaknesses and you know how to push your own buttons. And that's why you have so much empathy for those that struggle.
And then sometimes you think about the people you're supposed to care about but they've shown you who they are and that they'll never change. And that's alright, they absolutely do *not* need to change.
They'll just get to enjoy life without you. Because you both have a choice, you don't owe anyone anything and vice versa, they don't owe you a damn thing. You have to find that confidence, the confidence not to let people treat you like anything other than the good person you are. And you'd better be that good person. Two wrongs don't make a right. Stay strong.
