This is #OHMthoughts 9/18/23

The wind certainly picked up this evening and gave the air a touch of crisp.

Not sweatshirt-crisp for those of us with a ready-for-Winter layer in Fall (I'm still not certain about capitalization of the seasons. I could look it up and find out. We'll leave it at that) but enough chill to remind me how stoked I am for sweatshirt szn (season). Like hats, I am an avid haver of sweatshirts and, like you, have a favorite one I look forward to wearing.

I did the video that precedes this post about doing something today that helps fulfill your purpose. If we take that to heart and do at least one thing, soon we can achieve our goal. Now "soon" is obviously subjective. It's different for everyone but if we do at least one thing, the goal can be reached sooner than if we hadn't. I know I'm getting a little close to the Line-De-Cliche, but I'm telling you, the shit works. It's the same way I tackled my weight loss and every issue I've ever dealt with my hand. All of it takes time, patience and persistence. But every day isn't my best day, hell a lot of days are much closer to my worst day than my best, but I do something.

Quick aside-here's where the toxic bullshit of dysfunction rears it's ugly head. For a long, long time I never thought I did enough. I always told myself how lazy was, that i'll always be this way, etc. It was a constant battle to keep that negative self-talk at bay. It wasn't until I faced it that I was able to understand the why and properly deal with it. It's not that it's gone forever it's just that now I don't believe it any longer.

I think there's a lot of us that deal with our own negativity on a regular basis. Maybe confronting that is part of your purpose. I know it absolutely is for me. When you're good with yourself, you're good with others. Every day just one thing. You are worthy of it.

Part of self-worth is understanding that when people do wrong by you, it’s up to us to stand up for ourselves. Toxicity will trick us into believing we’re not worthy of help, or even worse, it will convince us to wait for help because we believe someone cares enough to be our knight in shining armor. Here’s where some of us really show off our self loathing. We wait for someone to help us, and when they don’t, we use that as pity fuel to reinforce our negative self image. We spin our own web of negativity and when our web is the most beautifulist, toxic web we could ever weave, we jump in head first and act surprised when the spider eats us (metaphorically of course).